slowly moving away

i knew i already decided ..that's a good thing indeed
i never regret it...
but then i will arrive in one stop..
when i realize that you are not care with me enugh..
and what i'm doing here just for torturing myself..
all i used is rationalization..and that's bad for sure..
i cannot have the reasons for all my painfullness..
So..
do i need to slowly moving away?  starts now?